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Tue, Jan. 13th, 2009, 02:54 am

this song makes me feel ALIVE.

Sun, Oct. 5th, 2008, 09:56 pm

My Sundays lately have been rather full.

Went to Half-Price Books and Movie Trading Co today, and got $101 for a bunch of books, DVDs and CDs I never use anymore. Not too shabby. And of course, since we were in the area, Catherine and I had to go to Ikea, where I bought another Benno shelf to go with the one dad bought me for my birthday, since the one shelf still isn't enough space for all my DVDs. I have a ton of TV shows on DVD. I watch them all, I swear!

This was followed by a belated birthday dinner with Sara and Geoffrey, which was of course pleasant. We went to P.F. Chang's, which I can't remember going to in so long. I had the orange chicken, which was fucking DELICIOUS, if rather pricey.

Still hurting for money, but things aren't as bad now that I'm beginning to learn how to curb my spending. Going to Ikea was a great test of that - I've been looking for a place to store my magazines and almost bought a small $60 drawer unit until I realized I could just condense the clothes in my dresser at home to make room to store the magazines on the bottom shelves. Haven't been spending much online lately either, except for one incident when I realized I never bought the Napoleon Dynamite 2-disc set on DVD and just HAD to have it. It was only $20 thanks to my B&N discount, so whatever. I've also got a few auctions going on eBay which should bring in an extra $60 at least, and Lindsay is buying my Alanis Morissette concert tickets (we decided not to go anyway.) Looks like everything's looking up, money-wise.

Wed, Oct. 1st, 2008, 11:34 pm

Every so often I get into this weird mood where I need to clean and organize everything in my room, and throw away everything I don't use. And every time I finish, I get so excited about how much space I have again that I go out and buy new shit that... I don't use. Currently I am in one of those moods, but I haven't yet gotten to the point where I feel like I need to buy new things.

I just finished cleaning the hell out of my room and closet. There's still more work to be done, but hey, everything's neat and stacked, if not organized, so at least that's progress. I also donated a shit ton of clothes and toys to Goodwill, finally giving me a more updated wardrobe of things I actually still wear. All that's left to do now is sell some DVDs to Movie Trading Co, some games to Gamestop and some books to Half-Price, so I'll have a little extra spending money, because you can never go wrong with money.

I do sometimes have some remorse about what I do throw away. For example, this time around I finally got rid of my old art desk that I've had for at least eight years. Unfortunately, although I do still enjoy drawing, I haven't really devoted a lot of time to it, so it's been just taking up lots of space for about three years now. Lots of memories are buried in that desk. For example, I remember when Catherine would come over, her first stop in my room would always be that desk, where she'd churn out some masterpiece that I'd keep in a little folder convinced that we'd want to revisit them someday.

Good news is, Catherine may take the desk, provided she has the room, so at least it'll be in the family.

Sun, Sep. 28th, 2008, 09:49 pm

Thanks Quizno's, for bringing back your meatball sub. You've done the community a great service.

Wed, Aug. 27th, 2008, 06:55 pm
money woes.

I know I've made this post a gazillion times before, but I need to stop spending so much money. Part of it is, I still haven't saved enough for that car I've been saving up for for a year and a half, another part is I need to save money for all the shit I'm planning for my birthday party, another part is... I'm left with a bunch of crap I never really wanted that badly in the first place.

Like today. I was at the comic store and bought my usual issues of Amazing Spider-Man and Ultimate Spider-Man and this month's Wizard, all titles that I enjoy reading. But I also ended up buying Mighty Avengers and New Avengers purely out of habit - I only began reading them because they had Spider-Man in them, but now they're bogged down in tie-ins to Secret Invasion and haven't been interesting nor have they had any story depth. Stories about Elektra fighting ninjas and becoming a Skrull aren't why I started buying New Avengers in the first place. I should stop buying both titles monthly and instead check out the graphic novels when they come out to see if it's a story worth buying and reading.

Another example is, a customer at work once recommended I read Tintin. Being the obsessive-compulsive that I am, I bought the first volume and also bought the DVDs sight unseen. Only to find I don't particularly care for Tintin and now I'm stuck with this merchandise I'll never have any use for.

So now I'm going through everything I buy on a case-by-case basis and figuring out if it's something I'll actually get some use or enjoyment out of. No more impulse buys like Tintin or the first season of Eli Stone. I'll watch Eli Stone on TV first and decide from there if I like the show enough to buy the DVDs.

I feel empowered now.

Thu, Aug. 21st, 2008, 06:20 pm

I desperately want this costume:

Unfortunately, they don't make my size. They go straight from 5'0"-5'2"/110-125 lbs to 5'9"-5
11"/150-180 lbs. What about us poor 5'6" Spider-Man fans???

I would have so much fun in that costume.

Wed, Aug. 20th, 2008, 06:14 pm

I'm apparently attending the Alanis Morissette concert on October 25 with Catherine and Matt. This will be my first concert ever.

Not that I don't love Alanis, but I was kind of hoping my first concert experience would be... less embarrassing? Haha, oh well, should be fun.

Wed, Aug. 20th, 2008, 02:41 pm

I've been planning a birthday party for myself (is that sad?) for the past couple of days. It's not til next month, but I wanted to give myself enough time to get everything prepared so I don't freak out, and so I can give people enough notice to be able to attend. What I wanted to do was rent out an event room at a bar, but the cheapest I've found so far is $200 an hr at The Fox and the Hound! The hard part is I'm expecting only about 20 people, maybe a few more than that, and most event rooms need a minimum of 40 people. I called Dave & Buster's and heard something about a flat rate of $300 for the room and an additional $18 an hr, which is reasonable, and they allow for a maximum of 20 for the room I'm interested in, so I may end up doing that.

Other ideas:

I really want to do the whole intimate sit-down thing, since this will be the first time I've gotten all my friends in the same room at the same time. But I don't want it to just be sitting around drinking and talking, so Pam's idea was to do dinner first, then go to Main Event or Dave & Buster's after dinner for games and the usual bar scene.

Catherine liked that plan, but also suggested ordering a limo for the second part of the night, so the whole coup de grace of the evening can be riding around Dallas in a limo for a few hours getting drunk and doing drunk things. Which frankly, sounds like an amazing idea. However, renting a limo for the amount of time we had in mind will cost around $600, and combined with the potential cost of the room, I'd be looking at spending around $1000 on myself for my birthday. Not good.

So we'll see. I've got a month to finish planning and a rough idea of who's coming, so that'll help.

On another note, it has rained every day here since Saturday. Literally every day. It's great not having humid Texas weather in August, but MY GOD, the rain. We have a suggested forecast that we may be getting some fall weather sooner than usual, so fingers crossed. I love fall.

Sat, Aug. 2nd, 2008, 07:03 pm

Breaking Dawn release party pix here.

Tue, Jul. 29th, 2008, 04:31 pm


So backstory: our store recently lost its newsstand lead, meaning no one was there any longer to refresh magazines. Our district office didn't want us to hire a new one for some reason, so the managers scheduled random booksellers to do it, which said booksellers rarely, if ever, actually did because newsstand is a thankless job. Because the managers have an opinion of me that I will willingly do any job assigned to me, they started making me do it instead. Over time, I unofficially became the new newsstand lead in addition to my head cashier responsibilities, essentially being paid for one job title while simultaneously doing the workload of two. No biggie, it gives me something to do. I am praised by the receiving and management staff for doing a great job.

Cut to today. My store manager Kim keeps coming to me asking me what I'm doing while I'm scanning our magazine oversstock for any returns, basically implying that she thinks I'm acting busy and not staying on task. After that's done, I start searching through the oversstock looking for a specific magazine that was supposed to have gone up on a display yesterday (and of course no one decided to do it for me while I wasn't there) and she pulls the same routine. I think she's kidding, but she makes it clear that I need to stop wasting time and actually do something. She says she has left a note with the managers to "watch me" when I'm in the oversstock as well. What is she afraid I'm going to do? I get pissed off at this accusation, especially since clearing oversstock is something I do once every week (and a required part of doing newsstand!), so why bring this up now? They plainly gave me the newsstand job because I'm considered someone to be relied on and rarely sidetracked or lazy, but Kim's sudden actions don't jibe with that. And it's not like there was anything better for me to be doing; it was a very slow morning.

So I stop doing newsstand, since apparently that's considered not on task. I go back to it when we get our new shipment of weekly issues around 11am (People, Time, Entertainment Weekly, etc.), which I start receiving because that's something that always needs to be done ASAP, and I've always been told that. After opening all the boxes around 1 or so (following a 30-minute lunch and in between several pages to the registers and customer service), I start shelving it all in the newsstand. I come back to the cart to get a new stack to put out and another of my managers, Frank, starts wheeling it away and says, "You don't do this anymore. This is for morning people now."

I'm totally confused, and seconds later Kim approaches and tells me they've decided I can't be newsstand lead anymore because I'm "obsessed" with it and have been neglecting my head cashier duties as a result. Apparently, a cashier had paged Frank directly on his portable phone to do a return, and as a result I didn't know this return was needed. But Frank interpreted this as me not responding to a page for a return, or ignoring it, and convinced Kim to demote me from newsstand lead responsibilities.

How much sense does this make? First of all, I NEVER intentionally ignore or put off responding to pages, not even for backup at customer service, unless I'm helping a customer or otherwise detained. Or you know, IF I CAN'T HEAR THE PAGE. Second, assuming I was ignoring this page, how can you surmise from an isolated incident that I'm suddenly a neglectful head cashier? Aren't managers supposed to look for patterns of behavior before punishing for this kind of thing? Everyone has an off day, or gets sidetracked, or makes a mistake, or whatever. It's unfair to judge how well someone's doing their job from a single situation. Call me to the office and talk it over, maybe, but not punish.

I don't want to sound too "woe is me" here, but I've managed to balance what is supposed to be two separate job positions with no problem, and have proven to be the only one trusted to take care of newsstand responsibilities. But instead of being appreciated for my efforts, I get punished for being "obsessed" with my job. I'm not saying there haven't been times when I've been so wrapped up in a project I didn't hear an overhead page, but those incidents have been few and far between, and what happened this afternoon wasn't one of them. It's like an indirect way of saying I can't handle projects because I can't multitask. It's nice to know that when you focus on completing projects, you're not considered "on task and reliable," you're considered "obsessed." Yet when the booksellers before me deliberately avoided doing newsstand, nothing ever came of it as far as being reprimanded goes.

I also don't understand why this is coming out of the blue. No manager has ever mentioned or even hinted at this to me before. What happened before today to suddenly make them think I was being negligent? If I was being so wrapped up, why didn't someone pull me aside and discuss it with me instead of praising me every time I did newsstand? If I'm doing something wrong, tell me. COMMUNICATE. Don't do this mind game bullshit.

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